This is a spoken-word piece I wrote over this summer. My friend and worship-leader, Apryl Petterson, asked me to write something for a worship night we had over the summer. This thing came from some hard work and the things the Holy Spirit was teaching me. I sat down after thinking a lot of different ideas and wordings, and it came together in one sitting of 45 minutes. I got to share it with my youth group and also was invited by my youth pastor Mike Benson to share it with the church fam on Sunday morning. All credit to the Lord. Haha, it was such a fun experience too. Enjoy!
Everything is simple in the Kingdom;
I just like to make it complicated.
What if the sin in my life was actually
because I wasn’t concentrated?
It’s really simple.
When you go to your room to turn on the light
the darkness doesn’t beg for mercy to stay or put up a fight.
It has no choice.
It goes.
Lights on,
Darkness gone.
So what if my mediocrity and complacency
were just from me not pursuing the good things?
What if my depression and insecurity were actually
my choosing to be focused on me?
The first reward for serving someone else
is to watch their appreciation joyfully.
Jesus didn’t make it complicated,
but out of my immaturity and frustration, I choose to do the same things without thinkin’.
I’m a lot like Simon Peter, hasty and impulsive,
doing things the only way I know to do them.
I don’t stop to ask questions.
I continue in ignorance and
in return get the repercussions.
When I’m faced with challenges,
instead of seeking the LORD,
I crack under the pressure,
and I return to the same state I was in before.
I’m starting to hear that rooster crow.
Each time I do things my own way, I deny He’s on the throne.
I think things like, “I’m too busy to use my time for them,”
or when someone needs my attention,
I nod my head and smile,
but I’m thinking about something completely different instead.
Or when my family needs me the most,
I sit in my room isolated.
It’s not complex.
There are no theories or therums,
no finding the cubed root of x, or whatever it is.
It’s so easy,
but I just want to take a quick trip like I’m going to Quick Trip
’cause I’m lazy.
So I keep my head in a book,
or my ears in my headphones
because I haven’t stepped out of
my comfort into the zone.
I know what I am supposed to be doing,
I just don’t do it,
and that’s exactly why I feel empty and alone.
Instead of processing the wisdom and revelation
I’ve been given from the LORD, like,
“Humble yourself and you will be exalted,”
and “The meek will inherit the earth,”
and “The righteous will live by faith,
not striving to finish the already finished work,”
I live my life undisciplined and self-focused
and miss out on the peace and joy
the LORD has offered to me
and stay hopeless.
It’s really dark in here.
I think it’s time to turn on the light.
I don’t know about you,
but I’m living like a child of the night.
I’ve been settling for dullness and redundancy.
It’s time for bold sharing and living vocally,
and it starts by choosing right.
No more compromises.
No more excuses.
I’m going to process the wisdom
and walk out the promises.
Endless joy and pleasure are mine!
Peace and satisfaction are mine!
Grace and mercy are mine!
Kingdom living really isn’t boring.
I just wasn’t doing it right.
Excuse me, I’m going to my room;
it’s time to turn on the light.
The Joys of Whimsy 